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It’s true, Allah S.W.T. forgive the every sins of the believers, except for the sin of “Syirik”. Na’uzubillah… Astaghfirullah…

But Jahannam is the place for sinners. Be it for all the simple tiny sins we’ve intentionally/unintentionally committed or the big heavy ones. Na’uzubillah… Astaghfirullah…

The Jahannam is feared even by the great angel Jibril a.s. To vision it with our “inner” eyes, would be very tormenting. We may cry an ocean over the sins we’ve committed all these whiles, when we can actually see and feel the torture of Jahannam.

“Ya Allah Yang Maha Pengampun, ampunilah aku… ampunilah aku… ampunilah aku…”

Today’s ceramah by a lecturer from UM really triggers me. Besides his outstanding 30-minutes presentation, I’m amazed by how he clearly delivered the following points for us to digest:

1. Bagaimana syaitan menipu kita / How syaitan tricks us

• “Jangan buat” / “Don’t do” – which means syaitan keeps on whispering to our ears to avoid doing ibadah or amal soleh in order to diverge us from siratul mustaqim
• “Jangan buat betul-betul” / “Don’t do it right” – which is the second phase when we ignore the first whisper, where syaitan will whisper to our ears to take the ibadah lightly and may lead us to the wrong way of doing it; hence the ibadah/amal soleh is not perfect
• “Jangan dapat penuh” / “Don’t do it perfectly” – this is the final phase when we managed to ignore the two of the previous whisper, where syaitan wants us to do the ibadah/amal soleh just as is or half-way through. For example, if we can score an A+ for this Ramadhan, syaitan would work hard to ensure we only get a C- (hope you get what I mean)

2. Bagaimana lazatnya ibadah / How delicious ibadah is

• Cuba / Try – first, try hard to do an ibadah/amal soleh and be istiqamah about it for a while. try your best not to quit.
• Rasa / Taste – now feel how the ibadah/amal soleh slowly becomes a part of you. it will become a norm to you.
• Lazat / Delicious – after a while, nothing can get in between you and the ibadah/amal soleh you’ve come to love. it’s like a food you really love, nothing can taste the same, and nothing can ever make you “unlove” it.

Everything starts with a nawaitu in our hearts. I’m not a good person. But insyaAllah, I have the nawaitu to be better everyday. Let’s have the right reason to live – Lillahi Ta’ala…

There’s a saying:

Don’t ever let anyone know you’re lonely ‘coz nobody can ever do anything ’bout it but you…

-me

In a way saying that one should never complain ‘coz nobody can ever actually do anything ’bout what one is complaining about, except oneself – if you get what I mean.

If change really does matter to everyone, then so be it. Change for the better, rather than worse. If changes around us make us feel vulnerable, running away is not the answer, unless it’s a timing bomb. To preach people to change is to actually let them know what to do exactly, and guide them. Telling people to change is actually telling them they’ve been wrong all along. Let’s face it, in nature, human beings can’t accept being told of their mistakes. But we can learn. There are tricks to this, so maybe we can learn how. We can change. Just not too much at a time. Have faith.

So this video has nothing to do with the vow I’ve made last week. It’s just a song I really love. From One Tree Hills OST:

Keane – Everybody\’s Changing

The term “persetankan” was well known in the 90’s, when T.V. was the only source of the so-called “kasar” phrases and terms. I’ve always known the term “persetankan” is to mean “oh, what the hell, let it be” or so. The word came back a few years back when study life comes to the most impossible phase. Therefore, “aaaaahh~ persetankan saja assignment tu dulu… mari pergi mapley!”, and “persetankan apa kata orang, janji fyp dh setel!”, and “aahhh… persetankan semua itu, kita bantai je final paper ni…”, and so on.

Life has phases, and so does mine. This part of my life, I guess it’s the steepest slope to climb. Slippery stones to grab on, and too many creepy crawlers running down on me. This part of my life, I need a whole lot of strength to get through. Hence, the first 7-days trial at Empire Tower’s Fitness First!!!

Tomorrow’s going to be the first visit, insyaAllah. I hope this kick start (which is like the thousandth kick-starts since early this year ) will boost my stamina to the max and I will use all my strength to climb my mountain to the top! I will use ‘em to do my after-office-hour activities with FAMILY and friends happily and with more energy! Of course, less sugar will be needed, plus less coffee addiction (I wish~).

arrgh! *dush* (ketuk kepala sebab lari dari mood asal).

Okay, this part of my life, I really pray hard for the best health of my parents. I really need the both of you to hold me in place each and every second. You are the only parents I have, and I really want to drag you along to wherever I will go. Get well soon…

p/s: This part of life onwards – I can never say the word “persetankan”. EVER.

Cepucemas, as what my friend Myra always says… The cepucemas question I always get recently is as follows:

“Hazirah bile lagi??”

Which I believe refers to when is it going to be my turn to get married. Fiuuuh~ (wiping my forehead that’s not even sweating). It’s not the question I’m disturbed by. It’s the term kahwin I’m worried about:

1. It’s a big responsibility, towards

• Allah S.W.T
• Husband
• Parents
• Parents-in-law
• Siblings & in-laws

2. It’s a matter of Life Management – even greater than a Project Manager’s post in a super-big company.

3. It’s the risks of breaking hearts unintentionally.

4. It’s about all the wrong decisions, miscommunication, mistakes, and all sorts of stupidness.

5. It’s the path which may turn out to be either right or SO WRONG.

I know kahwin is supposed to bring good omens. It’s an ibadah strongly advised by our Prophet P.B.U.H. It’s supposed to be a knot to tie down silaturrahim between two (or more) families. It’s also supposed to be a shield against all unnecessary sins… and so marriage is not supposed to be feared, but to be cherished for its legality.

But I’ve made a promise to myself not to commit into a marriage if I’m not ready to go through all these possible “if’s” awaits. I just can’t bare the thought of breaking hearts and unintentionally, irresponsibly overlooked on important details.

With this, I hope my future husband (whoever it may be) will understand and together be reminded of our responsibilities – as The Almighty’s humble servants, as babies of our parents, as husband/wife, and as future parents of the future children.

Ibu dan ayah, adik harap adik tak akan menghampakan dan mengecewakan ibu dan ayah. I really, really hope I wouldn’t ever break your hearts… At least I will try…

Ibu dan intan-intan payungnya...

Haven’t got the whole family’s old photo pulak.. I’ll post another one complete with ayah once I find one, insyaAllah…

"Family who eats together, stays together"

Sometimes when we feel like the whole world is falling down upon us, don’t forget to look up and reach out. There’s always gonna be a rescue chopper to get us out of the mess.

Sometimes when we feel like there’s no hope, find a switch. It may be the one which can switch the light on again.

Sometimes when we feel neglected, find people to care for. They may be the ones who will enlighten us for as long as we live.

Sometimes when we feel down and betrayed, remember to forgive sincerely. It may be the only peace that heals the wound in our hearts.

-Says I-

Tranquility, as I see it

In the name of Hypocrites, doctors have invented the most exquisite form of torture ever known to man: survival.

Edward Everett Hale

Of all the cants which are canted in this canting world, – though the cant of hypocrites may be the worst, – the cant of criticism is the most tormenting!

Laurence Sterne

There, there, don't feel too bad about it...

Tangga – Senyum Pada Dunia <<click link to listen

Dunia ini memang sungguh penuh dengan pancaroba. Hidup ini memang sungguh seperti terikat pada roda. Sering berputar sehingga terhenti nadi sendiri. Bila di atas, tidak kelihatan tanah di bawah. Bila di bawah, gelap hitam tidak terlihat cahaya harapan.

Sekiranya hidup ini terlalu lama menikmati kebahagiaan, sudah pasti diri akan seperti mati apabila disungkurkan mencium bumi. Itu lumrah yang mula kusedari, hari demi hari. Hidupku bagai masih belum tersungkur begitu. Pasti akan terasa juga suatu hari nanti. Hanya Yang Maha Esa Penentu segalanya.

Syukur, tarianku di dunia masih dalam sedar. Walaupun langkahku masih kecil, tarianku semakin rancak. Sehingga detik kutersungkur, nyanyianku pasti masih akan kedengaran. Kerana laguku tidak pernah berakhir. Kusematkan di setiap jiwa yang terlintas. Walau rentaknya berbeza, namun irama tetap sama.