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Cepucemas, as what my friend Myra always says… The cepucemas question I always get recently is as follows:

“Hazirah bile lagi??”

Which I believe refers to when is it going to be my turn to get married. Fiuuuh~ (wiping my forehead that’s not even sweating). It’s not the question I’m disturbed by. It’s the term kahwin I’m worried about:

1. It’s a big responsibility, towards

• Allah S.W.T
• Husband
• Parents
• Parents-in-law
• Siblings & in-laws

2. It’s a matter of Life Management – even greater than a Project Manager’s post in a super-big company.

3. It’s the risks of breaking hearts unintentionally.

4. It’s about all the wrong decisions, miscommunication, mistakes, and all sorts of stupidness.

5. It’s the path which may turn out to be either right or SO WRONG.

I know kahwin is supposed to bring good omens. It’s an ibadah strongly advised by our Prophet P.B.U.H. It’s supposed to be a knot to tie down silaturrahim between two (or more) families. It’s also supposed to be a shield against all unnecessary sins… and so marriage is not supposed to be feared, but to be cherished for its legality.

But I’ve made a promise to myself not to commit into a marriage if I’m not ready to go through all these possible “if’s” awaits. I just can’t bare the thought of breaking hearts and unintentionally, irresponsibly overlooked on important details.

With this, I hope my future husband (whoever it may be) will understand and together be reminded of our responsibilities – as The Almighty’s humble servants, as babies of our parents, as husband/wife, and as future parents of the future children.

Ibu dan ayah, adik harap adik tak akan menghampakan dan mengecewakan ibu dan ayah. I really, really hope I wouldn’t ever break your hearts… At least I will try…

Ibu dan intan-intan payungnya...

Haven’t got the whole family’s old photo pulak.. I’ll post another one complete with ayah once I find one, insyaAllah…

"Family who eats together, stays together"

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